When you love a girl...

Play with her hair. Talk to her in the movie theatres. Snuggle, hold her hand, and light KISS her. Hold her hand and walk. Hold her hand and run. Just hold her hand. Pick flowers from other people’s yards and give them to her. Tell her she looks BEAUTIFUL. Introduce her to your friends as “The most amazing girl I know.” CARVE Y0UR NAMES IN A TREE. Sit in the park and talk to her. Take her to the library, ice skating, playgrounds, and coffee shops. Tell her stupid jokes… whatever it takes to make her laugh. Write poems about her. Walk with her, even if it’s just around the block. Throw pebbles at her window at nigh. SURPRISE HER.

Do stupid things that make

 her SMILE, make her

LAUGH, and make her

want to KISS you right in

the face.

BE SPONTANEOUS…When she starts yelling at you, tell her that you love her. Give her back rubs. Play football with her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her even if its just to say hi. Call her back if she calls you. Jump on the bed with her. Whisper in her ear. Sing to her, no matter how bad you are. Get her mad, then KISS her. Push her on swings. Stay up with her all night. Leave her little unexpected notes… on the car, or on her door, saying how much she means to you. Take her to romantic places and lay out blankets to look at the *stars*. KISS HER IN THE RAIN. Make up nicknames for each other. Show up at her work or her house unexpectedly.

Stolen kisses are always

thee besssst (:

Send flowers and dorky notes that only the two of you would understand. Teach her guitar. Lend her your cds. Make her cds of songs that remind you of her. Write her letters. If she asks you to go to a show with her, go, even if it means a 5 hour car ride. Go on a road trip even if there’s no destination or you can’t be gone long. Listen to her favorite songs. When she’s sad or sick, take care of her! And forgive when she’s not being nice. Buy her ice cream. LET HER TAKE ALL THE PICTURES OF YOU SHE WANTS. Look into her eyes. Slow dance with her. Make her a romantic dinner for special days, & non-special days. Remember dates… even ones like your first kiss or date and surprise her on the anniversary. Kiss her when she least expects it.

When you fall in love with her, tell her.

I miss being your escape
and you being mine
I miss falling back on each other
through all the hard times.

I miss the endless nights
of laughter and tears
sharing our experiences
and what we've learned through the years.

I miss seeing your smile
and the light in your eyes
I miss being your happiness
and you being mine.

I miss feeling like
your number one girl
spending all day together
ignoring the world.

I miss having you come to me
in a time of need
I miss knowing you thought
you could tell me anything.

I miss feeling your touch
how you'd wipe my tears away
and as long as I needed to
in your arms I could stay.

I miss the look in your eyes
that told me you cared
and I miss knowing no matter what
you'd always be there.

I miss the fun times
we used to spend
but most of all
I miss my best friend.

Sometimes, two people find that no matter how close they are and how much they love each other, life's rode takes them in a different direction; at least for a while. When you miss & love someone so much, you find yourself living everyday to where you would give anything to look into their eyes and feel the warmth of their smile; when all you wanna do is lie in their arms 24/7 and feel the tenderness of their kiss; when it seems like the inseparation between you will last forever. But inside your heart, you know it won't because the connection between you and that special someone is too strong to break. When that amazing day comes, and you two are finally back together again, it will be as if all the time and distance between you never existed. Until then, you will always have them in your thoughts, dreams, mind, & heart, and which each passing day, you find yourself loving and missing them more and more ¢¾

maybe this is it. it's time to move on. its time for me to let stop these silly hopes & dreams that i've never given up on. no matter how hard i try i will never be able to forget about you. i will always love you. i cant forget all those times that we did have together and all the times that i was able to call you mine. its just time for me to let go of the let go of the past and be prepare for anything and everything else that life's about to let me experience. ¢¾

wow its about time i update this shit before its new years is over.

READY F0R THE NEW YEAR looking back at last year, i think that i've learned the most, about everything, about pain, heartaches, who to trust, who's always gonna be there for you in the end, whos worth the tears & whos not. well i just wanted to thank all my friends & everyones who've helped me through my toughest times, and who've been there for me when it feels like i've hit rock bottom & the world's turned its back on me. but its okay. new year, new beginning. bring on the 05!

IM G00D WITH0UT YOU anyways, thanks ateh ecka & gracee for being there for me today. i didnt mean to wake you guys up at like 4 in the morning but i was just really lost & confused and didnt know what the fuck to do. but its okay i dont need him. i deserve better than that. all that bullshit he's put me through isnt even worth it. i gave him more than he's deserve. you were right ateh, and i should of listen to you way before all of this started. but i choose to be put in this position, took a chance, and got hurt. its alright though, no pain, no gain. one day he's gonna know hes not gonna find any better. okay that sounded really concieted, but i did alot of stuff for him that i know lots of girls wouldnt of have. so yeah, i guess im better off without him.
"one day you'll seek love, and be sorry you threw mine away."

TURNING 17 well not gonna let him ruin the beginning of my new years. im gonna be turning 17 on tuesday! yayers! i can get into R-rated movies now! holler =D . ew im gonna old =/

R.I.P GRANDPA [07/27/41 -12/15/04]
i know youre shining down on us from heaven
you will always be in our hearts <33
[we love & miss you dearly]

You left so soon
We didnt have the chance to say good-bye
But that's okay, we know you didn't want it to be that way.
We stood by you when you fought so hard
To come back into our lives
So we can all be happy again
To hang on as long as you can
And we will never forget you.

If it means you have to leave us
To find your happiness
Then take our love with you wherever you go
And don't you ever forget to watch over us
Just to watch over us from heaven.

We miss your smile that gave us joy and laughter in our life.
We know one day we all will be together once again.
There's so many of us that you left behind.
But we all know that someday
Soon there will come a time
A time where we will all see each other again.
And we will be up there together in heaven.